Happiness, Confusion, Love, Frustration, Fear, Hope.
It was the longest weekend I’ve ever experienced. People ask me, “How was your weekend?” But honestly, I don’t know how to respond if it was a good weekend or not. I experienced plenty of emotions, but neither the good ones or the bad ones outweigh each other.
Material possessions can always be replaced, something that’s incomparable to my friends. I love my friends to death. I would never do any harm to them. I strive to keep as many of them in my life. Last weekend frustrated, annoyed, and angered me how much I don’t deserve the friends I have. I’m a mess. I’m sickened that I could betray my friends’ trust, and even severely injuring them in the process. I have some of the best friends in the world. Nobody should be put through what I put my friends through that Saturday night. I could care less about my car, I could care less about any scolding or lecture I would get, I could care less about the money. I don’t know what I’d do if I was the cause of their…
It hurts me that there was so many things I could’ve done to prevent this. So MANY things that could’ve changed so that it would’ve never happened. There were so MANY signs that I ignored. There are so MANY reasons why I didn’t deserve to leave the scene with only scratches.
Live and learn. That’s what everybody tells me. Learning about this event is the easy part for me, but living through it…it’s a lot harder than I thought it would be. It’s nothing I’ve ever experienced before. It’s not a wish that didn’t come true, it’s not a bad grade on a test, and it’s not a heartbreak with a person you thought you loved. My dad’s friend told me there’s many sections of life, a couple of them include: Birth, Innocence, Lost of Innocence, Love, Family, Death. I just can’t believe I brushed past the last section so soon. Someone was really looking out for me that night. I hope I can make what I have left count.